June 4 is hurdling toward me at an incredible rate. I marked that day on my calendar months ago and it has been staring me down ever seen. That day, my friends, is the day I will take the GRE for the first time. I have been studying as much as a full time student and part time youth minister can, but now that classes are out I am going to fill my day with vocab, math, and other SUPER FUN GRE prep.
This is a brief post, but it will be one of many about getting ready to apply to PhD programs. On the one hand, I am dreading this test because I know how important it is to my further grad school hopes. On the other, I am excited to prepare for it because I know it is the first step towards making those dreams a reality. I also have multiple factors pulling my in divergent directions. I wouldn’t really mind/care about getting an MA after my MDiv because hey, it’s school and I love school. However, I am feeling twinges of wanting to start a family (and so is Angela 
). I know the more course work that stands between me and my dissertation, the longer we have to wait on children. I don’t want to put that off more than we have too (we aren’t ready right now, that is for sure!) but I also want to finish my course work so I can be the best father/husband I can be. I guess that is one of my biggest fears: not being able to do my best. A lot of thing have to fall in line over the next year, and June 4 is the first. I know I can take it again, but doing well on June 4 would change my summer for the better.
All I can do is study and prepare myself. The clock is ticking.
