I am the weirdest person I know. Why do you ask? Because I think in terms of music. Whenever I do certain tasks or accomplish minuscule daily goals, specific songs or musical interludes pop into my head. For example, whenever I do something small or trifling well, I hear the battle victory music from Final Fantasy VII playing (if I wasn’t on my phone I would link the YouTube video) or when I need a quick pump-up I think of the Casino Royale theme by Chris Cornell. Time to do school work? Derezzed by Daft Punk. Creativity? The song from the 300 trailer. The list is perennial.
So what does this mean? I don’t know nor do I really care. Frankly I am indifferent…but it is something that helps me get through each day or another paper or another chunk of studying. I often feel like Ian running myself ragged or at least headed towards an untimely early death due to stress…but these songs, these silly songs; they remind me of what my Hebrew professor Fred Horton said about being called to ministry: “I didn’t ever really feel a call. Only when I looked back on things did I ever realize that was where I was supposed to be at the time.” Perhaps that is what this music does: it grounds me and reminds me of my past while pushing me past the menial present and into my hopeful future. Because that is what I am working for, right? I don’t study or work or make sacrifices for now…I do it for the future. That is a song I cannot wait to remember (cue final fantasy music).
